the8ballflower

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enthusiastic letdown by the8ballflower, literature

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enthusiastic letdown

The emptiness It gets to me And the havoc never pointed out Whats bursting at the seams Silent screaming To the inner lonliness The inner bleeding The inner pain The trees are starting to bend Starting to sway Starting to break We cant always be strong Sometimes we fall The rain pours down So you run and hide While I stand here [outside] Tears falling in unison Wondering why I held out my hand You reached beyond To something I never knew existed Something I never owed You had no right to have I stayed still Gave a second chance You pushed away Watched me bleed Afraid of what you might say I hold myself close I cl

birthday poem by the8ballflower, literature

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birthday poem

i'll let you down let u pick up the pieces let u fall let u find your own reasons i dont wanna help cuz i'd be to ashamed when i finally discover the truth of the game it's all fake and always will be i'm not good enough you'll never love me the pain wont subside honestly it never has it never stops no matter how hard i try so i'm running on empty my heart is a mess i try to not let this get me so fucking depressed and all the while i smile thinking maybe you'll disappear but the truth it has spoken the worst of all my fears so lonely i feel i'm used to it though so i think since its over i should get up and go

nevermind by the8ballflower, literature

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nevermind

Take the needle with the broken string And try to sew what you have wrecked Take the piano with the broken keys And try to sing me to sleep It wont work Cuz I cant forget Wat went on I stare into space Acting like I don't care When really I'm alone Really I'm scared This broken place My head cant find anywhere to rest You're everywhere With every step I take Nevermind what we said Nevermind what we did Nevermind the girl you said you loved It never helped me smile Never helped me laugh It only helped me fake The cold is warm And the sickness burns Im in a coma, that's all to familiar A song and dance ive already learn

BRIGHTEYES by the8ballflower, literature

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BRIGHTEYES

i rid myself of you today and i bled mself today and today, well today i managed to runaway runaway from the endless pain the pain insidel my heart and head the pain i feel when i go to bed the pain in my stomach that nasueates my inside the pain that cant seem to find seem to find a way out the pain that silently shouts 'my god what did i do why was i so dumb' the pain that makes me comfortably numb the pain that rips apart anything that was tryin to start the pain that twists and burns and cuts and just sits sits there eating away eating away at whats left whatevers left of us the pain that makes me question question now

PARKING LOTS n LIP GLOSS by the8ballflower, literature

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PARKING LOTS n LIP GLOSS

nothing'll hurt enough no matter how hard i try i'll never be able to cut deep enough i've tried time after time and the sickness eats me away and my blood is black and infected and i wont reach out and i wont cry and i wont figure it out and i wont try and i wont ever love and i wont open my eyes and i wont lift my head and i wont forget this time i'll sit here and wonder what it would've been like if i was the person you wanted the person you loved the person you'd hold and kiss and touch the person you'd say to 'i love you THIS MUCH' the person that you ment every word you had said to her i wonder what it'd be like

The Scene Elite Story by the8ballflower, literature

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The Scene Elite Story

CHAPTER 1 "You're deaf?" said the owner of the business, a bit disgusted. "Mostly…I've learned to read people's mouths and my friends sign for me." Responded the woman. RachelMarie was 33 years old. It had been years since she had lived on the streets. "How did you become deaf?" asked the man. Rachel laughed. "I've been deaf since birth, sir." She responded. "It's not that big of a deal is it?" she asked. The man sat back in his chair, thinking. "Well," he said, touching his chin, "in cosmetology…I guess not…" "Good, then when do I start?" Rachel smiled. "Rachel, you're from the streets, right?" asked the man, leaning for

The Scene Elite II back cover by the8ballflower, literature

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The Scene Elite II back cover

"And they walked down the streets of San Diego, hand in hand..." RachelMarie is 18, high spritited, and loves dating. She goes to school during the school year and partys during the weekends and summers. Rachel's different though. She's deaf and homeless. She has a family, just no home...except the streets. She struggles with her orientation. She goes from guy to guy, girl to girl. She is infatuated, lusts for, her friend Skyler. This is Rachel's story...and the shotgun sinners. This is the Scene Elite.

The Scene Elite II by the8ballflower, literature

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The Scene Elite II

As Alabama sat in the closet sh thought, "Avey's sick, dammit, Jordan's in the whorehouse with Kal..." She could only hear herself breathing. She realized, suddenly, how badly she needed the food. She stared at the man. He looked about 17, black hair, tan, punk kid. He looked strong, she decided that she could take him though. "I'll wait 'till the fag leaves fer a bit." she thought. She sat in the closet for about 20 minutes beofer she came out. She darted out and went for the nonperishables. Before she could turn around, he was on top of her. "Bitch! What you up to, huh?" he growled. She wrapped her leg around his and

The Scene Elite by the8ballflower, literature

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The Scene Elite

They sat in the alley together, Rachel and Skyler. They just thought about what happened and realized they needed each other. Rachel couldn't hear worth shit, and Sky had no independence. "Sky?" quivered Rachel, trembling from the cold, but moslty from fear. "Yeah Rach?" said Sky, signing while she spoke, as calmly as possible. "Was he...big?" "Naw, not to much....don't worry babe, it's over. We're okay. Let's go home now, k?" signed Sky. She was bleeding and a black eye. Rachel had a bruise on her hip and a few scratches. "K...are we gonna tell Alabama er Jrodan?" whispered Rachel. "I dun think so...Not Bama, she's got to

What I'd rather Do by the8ballflower, literature

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What I'd rather Do

i'd rather have your friendship than your love i'd rather skip the kisses and get to the hugs i'd rather go 2 the zoo and get dirty....with real dirt i'd rathergo 2 the movies and have us b the only ones in the theater and the whole time we make stupid commentary i'd rather go moshing at a concert and then go 2 a fast food place at 2 a.m. i'd rather go running in our bathing suites at 5 a.m. screaming like a bunch of banshees i'd rather have screaming contests till our innerds go raw i'd rather open a lemonade stand in the ghetto i'd rather go 2 an abandoned parking lot and sit in the trunk of my/your car and drink soda and wish on s

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Deviant for 18 years
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Current Residence: South Bend, Indiana (the PIT of the hell, the rest of you just live on the outer skirts of hell)
Favourite genre of music: rock, any kind of rock, country, hip hop er rap when i feel like dancing, techno, big beat, etc.
Favourite photographer: my sister...then emo kids again
Favourite style of art: photography...and anything else
Operating System: .............
MP3 player of choice: piss off
Shell of choice: hoodies dammit...ha thats my shell
Wallpaper of choice: sry i dont use wallpaper...i like paint...its messy ;)
Skin of choice: my skin...i think
Favourite cartoon character: that's personal!!
Personal Quote: "u live right next door to me....in my heart"

Favourite Visual Artist

emo kids...i love them

Favourite Movies

Elephant, Hide and Seek, anything on myspace, anything my friends make

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

PANIC! at the disco, loser, coheed and cambria, ACDC, NIN, the killers, the format, etc.

Favourite Writers

edger allen poe

Favourite Games

geist, doom, any zelda game(yeah!), list goes on

Favourite Gaming Platform

can't choose...